July 27, 2016 § Leave a comment
June 3, 2016 § Leave a comment
Makes me think about how much pain I was willing to go through before the pain was so tough I had to finally do something about it. It’s like this with all of my teeth. All of my ailments. Why is so much pain required? This is nothing new for me. I have an umbilical hernia which popped when I had my second child. I was told to get it fixed a few weeks after birth. It would have demanded I allow them to put me out and cut me open. That was years ago. Sometimes the hernia bothers me, but I’ve learned methods of coping. I know one day I’ll feel too much pain (frightening pain) over it, and only when it becomes nearly life threatening, only then will I do something about it. I wish I could change this about myself.
June 28, 2015 § Leave a comment
I am a sinking mother.
Violently scraping upward toward the surface and the light, but still sinking.
It is war, to be a mother.
Do not let go.
Just let go.
Never let go.